I admit it. I like the fence. I am comfortable there. I mean, really, it works for me. I don't have to be too far one way or the other. I can be right in the middle.
I can be this. . .
But, I can also be that. . .
And, all of this because I am in sitting comfortably smack dab in the middle of the fence. A pleaser to the core ~ that is me!!! I like approval. I like it a lot ~ makes me feel good, valued. And, the fence is good for that. The fence is safe. Since I'm not really too much this or too much that, I am just enough of everything to not really stand out or give reason for disapproval. It is a safe place, and I like it.
So, today I confess publicly that. . .
I. like. the. fence.
But, over the years I have discovered that there is a problem with my love affair with the fence.
And, the problem is that. . .
Jesus isn't quite as fond of the fence as I am.
In fact, I don't think He likes it much at all. :-(
A month or so ago, Jesus and I had this conversation as I drove my van full of little boys down the road. . .
Me: God, just tell me what to do, and I'll do it!!! You know that I will do anything that You tell me to do ~ whether or not it is what I want. If I know for certain, it is what You want, then I will do it!! So, please do not be silent! Speak Your thoughts to my heart! I want what You want!!
His answer: I know you well. I know your pleaser heart. I know that if I write the answer in the sky you will do what I say.
But, I'm not going to do that, and this is why. . .
I want you to take a risk.
I want you to get off the fence.
One way or the other, it doesn't really matter, I will be beside you. What you decide is not my main concern. I just want you to jump ~ no looking back. Put your fears behind you and take a risk.
Make a decision, either way, and walk boldly in it.
Stop wavering and swaying and being tossed about like the double-minded man in James.
Get off the fence.
And, stand firm in the confidence that only I can give you.
That is what I am asking of you.
Sunday, March 28, 2010
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Yikes!!
Praying for you, sweet friend. The other side of the fence is really nice, I promise :)
When I feel like that, I take comfort in knowing that God said he will uphold us with His righteous right hand (Isaiah 41:10). He is not only there to catch us but to lift us up as well.
Take care,
Stephanie
I'm in full agreement with Sarah. :)
The fence will give you splinters too ;)
I am praying for you as well ... so glad you are sharing this process of faith building! Such a beautiful thing :)
This was a GREAT post!
Yesterday in Sunday School, the teacher taught on the verse "Whoever is not with me is against me."
Yep, I was convicted, too!
whoa, hello! if this blog was any more pertinent to my life, I might spontaneously combust!!
Arrggghhh!!! I so do NOT like this post. Nothing personal to you Erin, as I come here almost daily to read your funny stories and wisdom.
Just a little too close to home, thankewverrymuch.
*sigh*
Great post, and oh how I can relate!
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