Tuesday, March 08, 2011
Rainy Day Rambling
My daily laundry is done ~ waiting in everyone's respective basket to be put away. I am sipping coffee ~ enjoying the rain and a good basketball game ~ Oregon versus Indiana. Lije is curled up by his "buddy," the sleeping Rain. I love listening to him whisper sweet words to his furry friend. He loves hard, my Lije.
And, in the distance I can hear the cry of my youngest coming from his room upstairs. So, I am sending Lije to talk to him and give me a minute or two before I have to leave my coffee and rainy window view.
Erik Daniel asked to sit in his bed earlier today and look at books. He sat in there for a good 20-30 minutes all alone and flipped through books. This completely baffled me. None of my other children would have ever asked to be confined to their crib all alone. He is unique. They all are. Sweet loves. Each one so different from the others. At times I try to compare them, but, seriously, they are so different. It simply isn't possible.
JCT, I am convinced is not from the same planet as Erik and I, and I am not sure how he landed here. But, I am soooo glad he did!!!! He adds so much to our world. Yesterday Joshua was given a University of Oregon, Singler, jersey. JCT put on a Duke jersey, so they could play Singler vs. Singler. But, JCT was struggling with the fact that his Duke jersey did not have Kyle Singler's number on it. Later, he announced to me that he wanted a Kyle Singler jersey. I quickly said, "Well, you'll have to talk to your Daddy about that." He turned his head, flipping those long straight strawberry blond strands, and said, "Oh, I don't need to do that. I've already talked to Sean, and he'll take care of it."
Oh, he will, will he?
So confident, that funny little man!!
Then, today I announced to the boys that Daddy bought us a new DVD player. Our old one has been broken for a while now. JCT quit playing basketball, smiled up at me, and said, "Oh, good! What kind did he get? A Blu-ray???" Seriously, JCT, a blu-ray? Erik and I are not techno savvy. We just kind of float along, and before we are completely outdated we join the rest of the world. We got our first smart phones a few months ago. Before that, we were both using "Go" phones. I'll never regret that move! But, to be honest, JCT was more excited about my iphone than I was!! As soon as I brought it home, he asked for it. He played with it for a few minutes then asked when I was going to buy some apps. He is something. And, no, Erik did not buy a blu-ray.
Now all my little monkeys are playing upstairs ~ hide and seek, I think. And, my thoughts are beginning to turn toward dinner. I am thinking we will do something simple and fun that everybody likes ~ like breakfast for dinner ~ pancakes, eggs, and fruit. Eriky D just came to sit with me. He says, "De dunder scures me!" And, I'm okay with that because I get to steal a bunch of sweet sugar from the baby soft skin on the back of his neck. Yum!
Yesterday evening I called my husband from my car outside his office and asked if he would let me in. He came out to find me all alone ~ the boys at home with a sitter! You should have seen his smile!! I highly recommend surprising your husband at the end of a long, hard workday with a night out alone with you, his favorite friend. We enjoyed a quiet evening, looking across a gently lit table and talking about all the things that we haven't had time to talk about lately. And, after we discussed the main things, we just enjoyed chit chatting over a yummy meal. I love quiet alone time with my love. On the way home, Erik joked that he almost forgot we had a houseful of sleeping kiddos. It felt like old times. Marriage is such a gift ~ a gift I never forget to be thankful for!!! We've been through so much together, and I love that when we are alone, the richness and fullness and love is not only still very much alive, but over the years it has grown in depth and beauty and tenderness. It is truly an amazing thing to share your life with another. I'm so grateful.
I keep thinking one of these days I will post about one of our school days, how it works, what we do, etc. But, every day differs here and there, and so I keep putting it off! I keep thinking I will nail down a schedule, and then I will post that so I can have a record of what our year looked like this year. But, I have come to the realization that with young children you have to be flexible, and I will never have a strict schedule that we adhere to perfectly each day. We have an order of events. Three of us have check lists that we keep up with throughout the day. But, I tend to go with whatever is working each day. If at 8:00 the little boys are busy playing in the sunroom, I don't make them come sit and listen to a story. I do math with one of the big boys while the littles are occupied. If I want to do grammar with Joshua, but Lije needs some TLC, then I put off the grammar and read to Lije, or I hold Lije while I teach grammar. And, this is why, we do not adhere to a rigid schedule. But, I feel we do have order and stability ~ it is just flexible!
I remember Roan telling me once that when her children were young, she would teach while little ones crawled on her head! I thought, at the time, that that sounded awful, and that I'd never be able to do that!! I am a tunnel vision girl ~ one track!! But, God has grown me so much in that!! Now, I invite my little two to sit in my lap while I teach the big boys! Especially Eriky! He will curl up, head on my shoulder, silky in his hand, thumb in his mouth, and snuggle in while I teach. I like that! And, I envision myself, a couple months from now, holding a newborn while teaching. The newborn stage is too short! I'm a believer in holding them as much as possible until they no longer want to be held!! Life is just too short!
Well, the rain is still pouring down. My boys are completely occupied in imaginative play ~ knights! And, only Rain and Eriky are near to me. They want me to protect them from the "dunder." Ahh... the peace. And, I will end with my afternoon's counting. . .
* Raindrops breaking the pond's surface.
* Little boys ~ my superhero knights in shining armor
* Kissing soft baby neck skin
* Distant thunder rolling
* A hand or heel protruding from my swollen abdomen
* A sweet, old, easily frightened, dog
* A peaceful afternoon in a house full of couped up boys ~ only with Jesus!!
* Grace that goes on and on and on...
Friday, February 18, 2011
The Box, the Love. . .
And, today was one of those days. Off and on all day, he pushed, a little here, a little there. And, so finally I had had it. We were standing in the garage arguing over a box. A box. It is a cute box, I'll give him that. It came from Land of Nod, and it has an airplane on the side of it. And, he wants to keep it. I see no reason to keep it. We've had it for months now. It just sits there looking cute. It's time to recycle the box, but he is suddenly attached to it for whatever reason. And so, he is arguing with me while his brothers stand around and watch. Silly argument, I know, but we've been pushing each other's buttons all day, and finally we were face to face in direct disagreement. So, I said, and I realized even at the time that this was a silly thing to say, but still I said it, "JCT, you act as if you love this box more than me!" (I know, I know, but I'm pregnant. Cut me some slack.) And, so he smiles a silly little grin, cocks his cute little strawberry blond head to the side, and says. . .
"I love you both the same."
Seriously.
Correct me if I'm wrong, JCT, but did I not give birth to you? Endured hard labor, natural labor, to free you to life! And, need I remind you that you were sunny side up making your delivery just that much more uncomfortable. And, that is just the beginning. . .
So, I say, "What? You love us the same! James, I'm your mom!" as his brothers stare with eyes like saucers, jaws dropped.
And, then, Joshua, my oldest, my voice of reason, my sweet defender, says, "James! NOBODY loves a box as much as they love their mom!! That's crazy!!"
So, JCT smiles, because he likes the way he has worked this situation, and he looks at me with eyes shining, and says, "Well," and he pauses as if he is thinking it through, "Well. . . I love you a little bit more. . ."
Uggghhhh. I quit.
I know my son. I know he loves me. This is the same son who if he had it his way would do all his schoolwork in my lap. This is the sweet son who loves on me to the point I have to tell him to please. quit. hugging. me. so that I can finish making dinner. He has asked on more than one occasion if he can live with me forever. This is the son who every night when I kiss his forehead and cheek, he rubs my kisses in and spreads them all over his face. I know he loves me, but some days. . .
Whew.
He can wear this mama slap out!
Tonight Erik had a ball game, so I was flying solo during dinner, bath, and bedtime. And, when I came downstairs after the last book, song, prayer, and kiss, I smiled to myself and thought about how much I love being mommy to my four little men. But, specifically, I was thinking of JCT. Even after a will surging day, I am so thankful. He adds so much to our family. He is so unique and so fun to mother. I love him with all my heart. He's a great kid. So, I paused in the kitchen and rested my tired body for a moment leaning into the counter. I was completely worn out from all the outside playtime, from the bending and lifting, from the holding and carrying, from the mental and emotional challenges. . .
So, for a moment before looking at my to-do list for the next morning, I paused and took a deep breath in and out. And, then I looked down at the counter, at my to-do list, and this is what I saw. . .
I took in the moment and smiled.
For every stress, for every strain of motherhood there are one thousand blessings.
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Winter Wonderland
Monday, November 15, 2010
Science and Gratitude
Sunday, October 24, 2010
His Own Little Man. . .
Monday, October 11, 2010
It's Unamimous
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
JCT-ball!!!
And, his day finally came. . .
Only, bless his heart, it wasn't quite that easy. . .
His first scheduled T-ball game was cancelled due to a high school play-off game. His second game was cancelled again because the high school team won and moved on and once again was playing. . .
Finally, finally his team was scheduled to play their first game. We counted down the days, the hours. . . But, when that long awaited morning finally came, JCT woke up and said that his "neck" hurt. Daddy took JCT to work with him and tested my little man for strep.
Positive.
Then, Monday he woke up to a sunny happy day, this was, once again, to be his first t-ball game finally!! Hurray!!!!
"Will it rain today, Mommy? Will they cancel my game?" he asked. I assured him that it was sunny with only a 20% chance of rain!
Fast forward 6 hours, and the rain clouds rolled into our little town. And, as I drove around running errands, there was no denying the thunder and lightning that indicated that he would once again not be able to play. His little voice hopeful from the back of the van, "Maybe it will just rain a minute, and they will not cancel my game."
Tears shed with each and every cancellation.
But, last night FINALLY, my little man got to play in his first game EVER!!!!
Number 23 ~ like Lebron James. . .
It won't be long, little Lijah. . .
Monday, May 10, 2010
JCT's Preschool Graduation. . .
First, all the kiddos came out and sang a few songs. . .
JCT is not shy, not at all, but he was very serious and focused throughout this event. That was so funny to me!!!
He is on the top row far left. Afton is on the second row, second child on the right. She smiled the entire time she sang, silly girl!!!
Then, the graduates left and came back in their caps and gowns!
My big little man. . .
Here he is with a few graduate friends of his. . .
This is one of JCT's ballgame buddies. He has a big brother Joshua's age, so JCT and this little guy play while their big brothers play their baseball games. I love the look on my little man's face. . .
JCT with his sweet teacher. . .
Pop got to be here for this happy evening!!!! Here he is with his biggest fan. . .
I am so proud of you, little man!!! You are so smart and so sweet, and we love you so much!!! We think you have what it takes!!!!!!
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Interesting. . .
Since then he has been given dinosaurs, snakes, toy cars, a robot costume, etc. And, every time it happens, I just shake my head, and say, "JCT, do not keep taking your friend's toys!" But, then he insists, "Mommy, they want me to have them!" And, inevitably, it won't be long before he comes home with another toy.
I was at school with him one day, and when it was time to go, I noticed that JCT was holding a Chick (from the movie Cars) toy in his hand. I asked him where he got it, and he said smiling, "Samuel gave it to me!" So, I marched JCT over to Samuel and said. . .
"Samuel, did you give this car to JCT?"
"Yes," he said.
"Well, don't you think you will want it later?"
"No. I want James Tistifoor to have it!"
"But, Samuel, when you get home and you want to play cars, don't you think you'll miss it? Don't you think you'll want to play with it one of these days?"
"No. I want James Tistifoor to have it."
I pry the car out of my son's hand and try to force it into Samuel's hand. "I think you will want it later."
"NO! I want James Tistifoor to have it!" And, with that he ran away.
I looked down at JCT.
A funny little smile spread across his silly little face. . .
a smile that said two things. . .
1.) SUCCESS
and
2.) 'I told you so'
all at the same time.
Then, just today I was at JCT's preschool for a magic show, and David's mom came up to me. She said, "We have this spiderman riding toy that David has outgrown, and he is insisting that JCT have it."
I just shook my head.
Then, the truth came out. . .
I asked her, "Why? Why does he want JCT to have it?" She said, "Well, David was talking about outgrowing it, and JCT mentioned that he had little brothers who might like it."
Little brothers who might like it. . .
Hmmmmm. . . . .
Then, when he got in the car to go home, I noticed that he had a dragon toy in his possession ~ another happy meal toy he acquired from a friend.
If I didn't know him better, I'd wonder if he was bullying these gifts from his buddies. But, JCT is not a bully. . .
So, either he has really generous friends, or he has a way with words and people.
I'm beginning to wonder. . .
Friday, April 23, 2010
The Sweetest Thing!!!
Anyway, today I was putting Elijah down for a nap when suddenly Elijah's sleepy face turned into a huge smile. I looked behind my back, and JCT was peeking through a crack in the bedroom door. I asked him to wait for me on the steps. When I left Elijah, I found JCT crying on the steps. I thought, perhaps, I had hurt his feelings???
So, we walked down stairs hand in hand, and I asked him why he was crying. He tried twice to tell me, but I couldn't make out his words for his crying. Finally, when we got downstairs, I sat on the ottoman and put him on my lap. I said, "Now calm down, and in a voice that I can understand, tell me why you are crying." And, he said words that made this mommy's heart cry. He said. . .
"When I was three, you used to hold me and sing to me, but now I am too big for you to hold me like that anymore!!!!"
Now, how many times has my heart yearned to hold Joshua or JCT the way I did when they were little?? It took me by complete surprise that he felt the same way!!!
So, I picked him up and cradled him with his big boy head laying on my left arm just the way I used to and rocked him for a few minutes.
And, he smiled. . . big time.
And, my left shoulder hurt. . . big time.
Man, do I love my big baby boy!!!!
A sweet moment and a sweet memory!
Light in the Darkness. . .
The other night as I was going through the motions of our bedtime routine, JCT asked a question that shook me right out of my auto-pilot like stupor.
I was reading the story of Creation in one of our Children's Bibles. I got to the part about God saying, "Let there be light" and there was, of course, light. And, before I could move on to the next sentence, James Christofer interrupted me.
"Wait a second. I just thought of something."
I am always intrigued by his thoughts, so I asked, "What did you think of?"
He said, "Well, I've never thought of it before, but I guess God didn't create the dark. It was just there, and He created the light."
I pondered his thought, then agreed with him that it never says that God created darkness ~ just that He created light in a dark void space.
I thought about his question for a long time after I kissed his sweet cheek goodnight. Did he have any idea as to the depth of the question he posed? I've heard many times the whole deal about did God create evil? If he created all things then He had to have created evil, right? Then, I've also heard it said that God didn't create evil. God is love, and in Him, because of Him, love exists. But, apart from Him, in His absence, evil exists.
And, JCT's question kind of seems to back that last theory. In God there is light and apart from Him there is darkness. He brought light and love into a dark, empty, void space. Take away the Light, and what are you left with?
Thursday, March 04, 2010
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Random Craziness
This has been such an interesting week. It began with JCT developing a strange rash all over his body - neck down. I attributed this to the fact that I recently switched from a fragrance free detergent to a naturally scented detergent. I didn't think much of the rash ~ figuring it was simply eczema, but my doctor husband took one look at it and said it looked like "strep." So, the next morning we took the little one to Daddy's office to be tested. Before he left JCT asked me, "Now, this isn't going to hurt, is it?" I cringed.
Maybe I should keep a closer eye on him??
The big boys alternate between football, basketball, and baseball these days. This afternoon they were playing basketball ~ the Hornets (Joshua) versus the Cavs (JCT). They kept score by using tally marks drawn with sidewalk chalk. Very fun! After a particularly nice move made by JCT (I think he stole the ball, but, honestly, I don't remember what he did that he was so proud of!! :-), he put his hands on his hips, looked me in the eyes, and said, "They don't call me Lebron for nothing!!!!" The kid cracks me up!! Oh, yeah, did I mention that he has strep throat?? And, he was playing basketball in the 40 degree weather!! You should have seen the way he looked at me when I told him that he couldn't go to choir tonight because he was sick.
Funny!
Thursday, February 18, 2010
JCT's Dino-mite Party!!
The day was very cold and overcast, but we still had a great time!! JCT asked specifically for a blue and orange t-rex cake. The inspiration for his color choice was his love for the Florida Gators!! So, here it is. . .
Outside Pop and Deana B's Diddy were finishing up putting together the boys' birthday present!! Woo Hoo!! So fun!!!
Sunday, February 14, 2010
February 4, 2010
Later that morning, I picked JCT up a little early from preschool, and then headed to Joshua's school to check him out for an hour. Then, the three of us headed to a new Mexican restaurant for a special birthday lunch date!!! It was all well and good until. . .
the waiters came over to the table to sing a Spanish version of Happy Birthday to the boys!!! Little did I know that they were going to put cream pies in the boys' faces!!!!! Yeah, that didn't go over real well. In fact, I fear they may never let me take them to this new restaurant again for fear they will get the same pie-in-the-face deal!!! JCT handled it better than Joshua, but neither one liked it!!
About a week before their birthday, I overheard JCT announcing to Joshua how many days were left until their birthday. And, I thought about what a sweet thing it is that God chose to give them the same birthday. JCT came three weeks early, and until my water broke unexpectedly, the thought of my oldest two children having the same birthday never even crossed my mind!!
But, God knew.
And, He gave these two a special little tie to unite them in a unique way. They are not twins, though I actually get asked that question from time to time, but they do share a special day. And, I love to imagine them as grown men calling and singing Happy Birthday to each other!
They are pretty fond of one another! I love the sweet bond that is developing in their hearts!
Monday, February 01, 2010
Monday
Enough said.
3.) JCT came home from school a couple weeks ago with this paper!! How sweet is this. . .
After I read his paper, I asked him, "What do I smell like, JCT?" And, he said, "You! Smell! Great!" And, my heart smiled so big!!!
4.) A sweet real little boy sort of friendship is blossoming between Joshua and JCT. And, I can't tell you how much my heart loves to sit back and watch. They love to play football outside together until they are frozen and it is so dark that they can't see well enough to play any longer.
They had done exactly that this particular evening. When they came in, I was cooking dinner, and they crashed on the couch to watch a movie together. . .
I love that they play hard outside. It is such an important part of being a little boy!!! I make them wear their "play clothes" when they play outside because they will destroy their "good clothes" if I don't! Check out JCT's knees after an afternoon of pure fun. . .I love it!!! They are the marks of little boy joy!!
5.) This next one made me laugh out loud! On Friday we got a great deal of freezing rain, and Joshua got out of school early which made for a fun afternoon for the boys. They couldn't play outside because of the weather, so JCT begged Joshua to play dinosaurs with him. Guess what big brother came up with to make everyone happy. . .
The stegosauruses versus the tyrannosauruses. . .
Dinosaur arena league football!!
Boys! Boys! Boys!
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Who Does This To Their Son. . .
Thursday, December 24, 2009
Christmas Things
Last Thursday was a blur!! I went from Joshua's school Christmas party (Where I have to laugh because Jesus' dad was there, and he is the man that takes carry-out orders at our local Mexican restraunt. So, as I was leaving, I wished Jesus' dad a Merry Christmas, but quickly added, "I'm sure I'll see you before Christmas! I have to have my cheese dip!!" To which he said without hesitation in his Spanish accent, "And, your quesadillas, yes?" I laughed all the way to the car because he knew my order!! Now that is funny!) to the house to change and bathe and feed dinner and then I ran out the door again to take JCT to his preschool Christmas program. Then, I ran home put the boys to bed, said a few words to Miss Megan, our faithful sitter, and then headed back out to our church's Deacon/Staff Christmas Party! And, I was beginning to feel a little sick, so I was a bit worn out by the time I got home!
Here are a couple pics from the special evening! I hate Erik had to miss seeing JCT sing!
Okay, now this next picture took my breath. Not because it is a fabulous picture or because JCT or I look great or anything. Rather, it is because I look old. I'm not just a little girl pretending to be a wife and mom ~ playing house. No, I am really 34 years old. I am really aging. I have wrinkles!!!! I don't look like a college girl anymore! I look like a thirty something year old woman!! I feel like a kid, but I look like a mom! And, the thought just blows my mind. . . Check out my crows feet. . .
You can't see it very well with the picture this size, but trust me they are there ~ lots of them ~ smile lines, huh? But, my reaction when I saw them was not one of disgust.
I actually smiled.
Growing old is part of life, and I am not immune to it. I am aging, yes, but that isn't necessarily a bad thing! All the years ~ the courtship, engagement, wedding, pregnancies, the children, the lessons, the long nights, the worries, the busyness, all that is my life ~ that is what I see when I look in the mirror and see those silly lines! They say I've been there, I've lived life, I've experienced life to the fullest, and that is a huge, huge blessing!
I have the same feeling when I catch a glimpse of one of the grey hairs in Erik's head or his beard, and I think to myself, "Wow! We are really doing it! We are really growing old together!" I guess the best way to sum it up and move on is to say that when I see those little signs of aging it makes me feel blessed to have lived, loved, been loved, and walked through life hand in hand with my sweet Savior every step of the way. Could anyone ask for anything more?
I digress, now here is a pic of me and my big boys. . .
And, my sweet girl, Afton, (well, technically she isn't mine, but I love her like she is!) wanted to be in a picture with us. . .
After the program, Santa came and talked to each child. I'll end with a sweet picture of JCT and Santa. . .
