Thursday, August 05, 2010

A Rebel

School started today. . .

But, my kids stayed home.

Insert small cringe.

A few weeks ago, I went to the local attendance officer and, swallow hard, I signed my children out of the state Department of Education. Big gulp!!!

I am such a rebel.

I've never been a rebel before.

I took my first sip of alcohol on my honeymoon when our room came with champagne. I haven't had a sip since.

And, let's just say that tasting alcohol wasn't my only first that night. . .

I'm not the rebel type.

I think the worst thing I did in high school was leave the refrigerator door open too long once.


So, this rebel thing is taking some getting used to!!

Homeschooling has ushered in two new things for me. One, the whole rebel thing. And, two, conflict. For the first time in my life, I have people opposed to what I am doing. I have always shyed away from conflict, and now without doing a single thing to anyone, I have stirred up a bit of conflict. So, I asked Erik last night exactly how to deal with it because literally I have never been in this situation before. I might be a slight people pleaser, maybe, just maybe. :-)

All that said, I have an amazing amount of peace this morning. My kids are watching Veggie-tales while the other children around town are getting seat assignments and doing worksheets. I always wondered how I would feel when the decision became final ~ when school began and the kiddos weren't there. Well. . .

I feel okay. I have peace this morning about our decision. After I kissed my sleeping sons last night, I met my husband in our bedroom and wrapped my arms around his waist. I looked into his big brown eyes and said, "Thanks."

"Thank you for letting me try this. Thank you that I don't have to send my boys out the door first thing tomorrow morning. Thanks."

He believes in me. And, I'm not sure how to thank him for that.

And, so here we are. It is 9:45 Thursday morning, August 5th, and my boys are home! Crazy! I'm such a rebel!!!! I have a few knots in my tummy, but other than that, I feel great!!! I am a little guarded, but still very excited, about beginning school with my boys next week! Monday will be our very first day!! If you'd like to say a prayer for us, we'd appreciate it!!!! I have so many ideas and plans running through my head!!! Just when I think that I couldn't possibly think of one more idea, another comes rushing in!!!!!!! I am looking forward to a fun year! And, man, I hope they learn a lot along the way!!! We'll see!!! It is an experiment, and I have vowed to put myself out there completely, to give my all, to hold nothing back!!!! So, here we go ~ a rebel with a cause!!!!! :-)


Kim said...

***Warning ... super-long comment!

I cannot begin to tell you how excited I am for someone who is a perfect stranger in practically every way ... but still the enthusiasm, excitement, anxiety, fear, hope and peace mixture of emotions is so much of what I experienced my first year after pulling my girls out!

I felt so alone.

I felt so at peace.

I felt so many things I cannot even articulate them here.

I was so encouraged by the blogging community back then and it has since served as an indispensable resource.

We are an oddball family with older kids and younger kids ... we are very conservative yet there are groups within the HS community that would find us liberal.

We haven't always homeschooled so that has isolated us from the radical militant groups who think that public school is a sin.

We don't send our kids to public school so that has isolated us from that group as well.

It has been an amazing, terrifying, exhilarating adventure and I would not change a single thing ... (except maybe to do it sooner ;)

It has taken a while. Some prayers and some patience and a healthy dose of grace.

But we have found our place :) We know so may people who are part of this community and along the way I have found my voice that is tempered with (I hope) the right amount of conviction and humility.

And believe me when I tell you that part took a while ;) I think I might be a bit more confrontational than you so I had to be careful to not be judgmental or sound that way ... especially when daggers were thrown my way.

Having my children in public school has given me a great springboard when talking about education because I can speak from both sides ... with great affection and with great honesty, because neither are perfect.

I love homeschooling more than I could have ever imagined.


Make sure you don't forget that as much as I love my husband and love my children there are still days when that task is difficult ... as is the task to homeschool.

But my commitment, my zeal, my purpose is unchanged! Erin, I am so excited for you!!!

I can't wait to hear how things go. Wish you were closer because I know our boys would love to be schoolmates :) Blessings!

SM Anderson said...

Good Luck. I am excited to read about your journey. I passed your blog on to a friend that is starting to homeschool this fall too.

Manda said...

I'm really excited for you, Erin. Having kept up with you through your blog for the last couple of years, it seems like you will be a GREAT homeschooling mom. We're considering this option for our wee one too, though school is a couple of years down the road for us. I can't wait to hear about all your adventures at home with your boys!

Donna Wright said...

I realized that when I told people I homeschool, they immediately feel the need to defend what they do. I meant no condemnation on them, but they felt it anyway. So I began saying, "We homeschool. It isn't the choice for everyone but it is best for us." That helped people to not perceive that I felt they were wrong not to homeschool.
I enjoy your blog.

Paula said...

This will be my first year as well. YIKES!! I have a five year old, three year old disabled child and expecting twins in a few short weeks. So create A LOT of CONFLICT in my choice. The fact that I am not sending my son to kindergarten and daughter to special needs preschool is just appalling to many. I always felt I may be called to HS, but when it came to the final choice, I was TERRIFIED!! PARALYZED! LACKED CONFIDENCE! And WORRY about human opinion.
Then my sweet sister in law, a 9 year HS veteran gave my two scriptures that I prayed over, hung on my refrigerator and meditated. It gave me my answer and peace.
Psalms 32:8
The Lord says, "I will make you wise and show you where to go. I WILL guide you and watch over you."
Proverbs 29:25
The fear of human opinion disables, trusting in God protects you from that.

I share those with you. I will pray for your Monday as we are starting ours on Monday as well. Trusting that if this is a call from God, then we will not fail!!! Just have to keep our eyes on HIM!!
Good luck!!

Anonymous said...

congratulations! have a fun week and i'll be praying for you as you start school next week! i know you are a stranger to me too, but in the Lord we are not really strangers, but sisters. i will be continually praying for you on this turn in your and your family's life. a bit of wisdom from another friend who homeschools, try it for two, because the first year is very hard and it is best to give it more than one shot!

Sammy said...

I am an elementary school teacher and I am a strong supporter of homeschooling! Right now my son is only 1-and-a-half (and number 2 will be here in a couple of months!), but when I think into the future I wonder what educational decisions my husband and I will make. I'd love to be able to home school, but I also adore teaching in a classroom (I work with at-risk children in an urban area) and don't want to give that up. We'll see what the future brings, I guess...

In any case, I am really looking forward to following your journey. I do hope you'll share the details on your blog!

Cali said...

How did your first day go yesterday?? :)

Linda said...

You are such a breath of fresh air Erin. How I love reading your heart.
I will pray for you and the boys. My d-i-l is a veteran home-schooler. Her oldest begins college this year. They have done amazingly well - always scoring way above their grade level when tested.
I can remember how excited she was when they began. "I'm learning things I've never known before," she told me. The adventure continues this year.

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