A Rebel

School started today. . .

But, my kids stayed home.

Insert small cringe.

A few weeks ago, I went to the local attendance officer and, swallow hard, I signed my children out of the state Department of Education. Big gulp!!!

I am such a rebel.

I've never been a rebel before.

I took my first sip of alcohol on my honeymoon when our room came with champagne. I haven't had a sip since.

And, let's just say that tasting alcohol wasn't my only first that night. . .

I'm not the rebel type.

I think the worst thing I did in high school was leave the refrigerator door open too long once.

Seriously.

So, this rebel thing is taking some getting used to!!

Homeschooling has ushered in two new things for me. One, the whole rebel thing. And, two, conflict. For the first time in my life, I have people opposed to what I am doing. I have always shyed away from conflict, and now without doing a single thing to anyone, I have stirred up a bit of conflict. So, I asked Erik last night exactly how to deal with it because literally I have never been in this situation before. I might be a slight people pleaser, maybe, just maybe. :-)

All that said, I have an amazing amount of peace this morning. My kids are watching Veggie-tales while the other children around town are getting seat assignments and doing worksheets. I always wondered how I would feel when the decision became final ~ when school began and the kiddos weren't there. Well. . .

I feel okay. I have peace this morning about our decision. After I kissed my sleeping sons last night, I met my husband in our bedroom and wrapped my arms around his waist. I looked into his big brown eyes and said, "Thanks."

"Thank you for letting me try this. Thank you that I don't have to send my boys out the door first thing tomorrow morning. Thanks."

He believes in me. And, I'm not sure how to thank him for that.

And, so here we are. It is 9:45 Thursday morning, August 5th, and my boys are home! Crazy! I'm such a rebel!!!! I have a few knots in my tummy, but other than that, I feel great!!! I am a little guarded, but still very excited, about beginning school with my boys next week! Monday will be our very first day!! If you'd like to say a prayer for us, we'd appreciate it!!!! I have so many ideas and plans running through my head!!! Just when I think that I couldn't possibly think of one more idea, another comes rushing in!!!!!!! I am looking forward to a fun year! And, man, I hope they learn a lot along the way!!! We'll see!!! It is an experiment, and I have vowed to put myself out there completely, to give my all, to hold nothing back!!!! So, here we go ~ a rebel with a cause!!!!! :-)